Day 30

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

Dear Rebecca, Becky, Becca, B, Baby, Honey... oh you know. Y-O-U!

Be proud of who you have become. You are strong, smart, loving, caring, easy going, loud, funny, and while obnoxious at times you know people can count on you for a hand to hold, a good laugh and always a pat on the back. Or at least I like to think so. You let them know when you don't think the same way as them, when they look fat in something and when you think your two cents should be heard. When you set your mind to something you almost always achieve it, some things just might take longer than others. You love hard and play harder. I give you credit for being honest with yourself and those who are around you. You recognize when you are in a bad mood and try to correct it[this most defintely applies when I am at work] You got your AA degree on your own and busted your butt, and will paying for it. But you did it all on your own. It's okay to not have to be done up all the time, wearing yoga pants to the grocery store is OK but just remember not to let the gas tank get too low that Brian has to come to your rescue again. [You know he has done it one to many times] Stay positive and keep your head up. Things could always be worse. Keep goals in sight but still have a few that make you reach for the stars. Remember that money is just that.. money and it doesn't buy you everything.

Day 28 & 29

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

I'd probably scream, then cry, then call everyone in my family [after Brian of course] and then probably just go numb. No joke, that's what would happen. Part of me thinks I'm ready to be a mom but other parts knows I want to wait 4-5 more years and enjoy more time with Brian, have both of us get our 4 year degrees and travel more. But if I were to get pregnant even though I know we are NOT actively trying it would be god's will and Brian and I would both embrace it because we do want children someday.


Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
I hope to change the negativity that I carry around in my life. I was probably THE most positive person in the world when Brian was deployed 2 years ago and I want to get back to that. Losing the weight I want to and getting healthy will help my self esteem which is probably where I took the hit, so give me 7-8 month and I hope to come back around!

Day 27

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

What isn't going well for me right now? A husband who is coming around to finally transitioning from his time in the Marines, the best family in the whole wide world who are always there to answer my phone call [even if it is a stupid question i've asked a million times], getting in touch with old friends who i've really been meaning to connect with since we moved back home, a great paying job, a brand new car and two healthy, loving, cuddly pups! I have a roof over my head for winter, a million things to look forward to and basically the world at my fingertips. Right now life is what I make of it and I can't wait to do everything within my power!

Day 24, 25 & 26

Day 24 → Make a play list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Skipping this b/c I just don't have time to do this.


Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
I believe I am alive today b/c I have worked my butt off. I've made mistakes, I've overcome challenges and I've loved. I've loved and lost, and then gained so much more. I am where I am because I got myself here and I'm happy. I have an amazing family, great friends, a husband who would do just about anything for me, a job, a nice car and a roof over my head.


Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Giving up on life or just the one I'm living? I have a few times. This transition has not been easy. I don't think the entire time I was in NC I wanted to "give up" but man I've had some bad days this year where I want to just walk away and start over from scratch. But I know that won't help anything. I'm content where I am. Life is a work in progress and it's not always rainbows and butterflies. Do I wish I had more free time? Of course I do. But I also am glad I have the money to do the things I want to do, when I want to do them. So life is not without some sacrifices.

Day 23

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

I wish I would have traveled more when I was younger. Maybe stayed in college and studied abroad like my sister. Worked my butt off to travel the U.S. and road trip with some friends. I feel like I haven't traveled or been around the world. Brian traveled everywhere when he was young and I can't wait to do that with our family.

Day 22

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Something I wish I wouldn't have done? If there was a single thing I would change that I wouldn't be where I am right now.  But if I had to say anything I guess it would be leaving my house the day after I had a nightmare of hitting someone and then actually doing it. Obviously I find no correlation there but I do. I had the dogs with me, it was almost rush hour and it cost me $500 bucks and 2 weeks without my car. But it was a lesson learned and you can be sure that I won't let that happen again. At least me hitting someone, I can't control anyone else.

My first experiment with dessert cooking!

I've made desserts before but nothing too over-the-top. I don't want to do this for a living but I starting following a blog and she's gotten me into really wanting to start making desserts for my family that are smaller portions and healthier but that still taste amazing! Tonight I decided to try out my first thing.

Angel food cupcakes with whipped frosting and sprinkles!

Enjoy the pictured steps!