Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
I never get compliments for how strong I am. I am a bigger girl but I can lift as much as any man can. I can lift, carry, throw with the best of them. At least for my size I'm good for something ;)
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Day 11
Day 11: Something People Compliment You the Most On
People always compliment me on my eyes and my smile. I get a lot of compliments on both. My eyes change colors so sometimes they are blue, other times green and sometimes one of both. When it comes to my smile I have to tell them it's all thanks to my dad; he's the one who paid for my straight teeth!
People always compliment me on my eyes and my smile. I get a lot of compliments on both. My eyes change colors so sometimes they are blue, other times green and sometimes one of both. When it comes to my smile I have to tell them it's all thanks to my dad; he's the one who paid for my straight teeth!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Day 10
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
There is someone I need to let go. She's only bringing me down but the part that hurts is that when I really needed her she was there and then all of a sudden she was gone. I hate girls who just disappear when the find someone and they give them every minute of their time. I want to just forgive and forget. Here's to hoping that actually happens.
There is someone I need to let go. She's only bringing me down but the part that hurts is that when I really needed her she was there and then all of a sudden she was gone. I hate girls who just disappear when the find someone and they give them every minute of their time. I want to just forgive and forget. Here's to hoping that actually happens.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Day 09
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
There is someone in particular. She probably won't read this because she has gone off into her own fairytail little world and kind of forgot about everyone else. I know why she did it although she would never admit it but I miss her. I've tried to reach out to her and gotten nothing back in return so I guess that's the end of that. It's a shame but as is life.
There is someone in particular. She probably won't read this because she has gone off into her own fairytail little world and kind of forgot about everyone else. I know why she did it although she would never admit it but I miss her. I've tried to reach out to her and gotten nothing back in return so I guess that's the end of that. It's a shame but as is life.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Day 08
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
There is a certain someone. Those of who, who have been a part of my life for over 4 years will know who she is, what she did and how long it took me to finally figure it out, get out of debt because of it and had to fight to not have it ruin my life. "She" is a psycho and I'm so glad I finally was able to see that for myself and cut it out of my life. Not without everything I was a part of being broken into, changed, broadcasted to the world that I was a whore (a week before I got married, mind you) and then of course the debt that insued. But I haven't had her a part of my life for well over 3 years and I'm happy.
There is a certain someone. Those of who, who have been a part of my life for over 4 years will know who she is, what she did and how long it took me to finally figure it out, get out of debt because of it and had to fight to not have it ruin my life. "She" is a psycho and I'm so glad I finally was able to see that for myself and cut it out of my life. Not without everything I was a part of being broken into, changed, broadcasted to the world that I was a whore (a week before I got married, mind you) and then of course the debt that insued. But I haven't had her a part of my life for well over 3 years and I'm happy.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Graduation!
I walked across the stage today! In quite a unique fashion I might add. [the video won't load, so go to facebook. It's on there!] Brian didn't come. Broke my heart and I broke down when I walked in and didn't see him standing next to my parents and his. But I had 7 people there cheering me on and to be proud of me. We all went to dinner after, I was showered with gifts I didn't expect and had a fantastic evening with my sister afterwards. I'm exhausted and going to keep this short and sweet b/c I still have laundry to fold that just came out of the dryer and I'm just dead tired from all the excitement today included. So without further ado...
The in-laws and I
Marcia, Me & My dad
Jerry, Me, My Mom
Grandma and I
Day 07
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
"Someone" how about "some... thing" aka my animals. While I guess they could be a someone they aren't human so I'm not sure they qualify. I know I say I hate Missy often and I more often than not have a strong dislike for her. But to be honest, she got my thru CAX in 2007, Brian's deployment to Iraq, CAX in 2009 and everything else in between. Charlie does too! They both don't judge me, they are always there to greet me when I get in the door. They don't look at me funny when I just want to cry, still want to snuggle when I'm coughing my brains out and have a runny nose and are spooning next to me every morning to kiss my face to know it's time to wake up. They help me make that one more mile on our walk, remind me that I have to go on in my life or no one else is going to feed them. [trust me]. They are my someone and I dread the day they leave this earth.
"Someone" how about "some... thing" aka my animals. While I guess they could be a someone they aren't human so I'm not sure they qualify. I know I say I hate Missy often and I more often than not have a strong dislike for her. But to be honest, she got my thru CAX in 2007, Brian's deployment to Iraq, CAX in 2009 and everything else in between. Charlie does too! They both don't judge me, they are always there to greet me when I get in the door. They don't look at me funny when I just want to cry, still want to snuggle when I'm coughing my brains out and have a runny nose and are spooning next to me every morning to kiss my face to know it's time to wake up. They help me make that one more mile on our walk, remind me that I have to go on in my life or no one else is going to feed them. [trust me]. They are my someone and I dread the day they leave this earth.
Friday, September 24, 2010
101 things to do in 1001 days!
The Mission:
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.
The Criteria:
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).
Why 1001 Days?
Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as new year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.
Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as new year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.
Project Start Date: October 1st, 2010
Estimated Date of Finish: July 1st, 2013
UPDATED: I HAVE A FEELING I NEED TO DO SOME UPDATING OF SOME OF THESE! BUT I DID COMPLETE A WHOLE BUNCH IN 2011, HERE'S TO 2012!!!!!!!!
Estimated Date of Finish: July 1st, 2013
UPDATED: I HAVE A FEELING I NEED TO DO SOME UPDATING OF SOME OF THESE! BUT I DID COMPLETE A WHOLE BUNCH IN 2011, HERE'S TO 2012!!!!!!!!
1. Have a child[ren]
2. Finish a half-marathon
4. Visit Vegas
5. Go to Texas to see Bay's baby
6. Make Brian's shadow boxes of his time in the MC
7. Sew myself a dress
8. Get 10,000 in my savings acct
9. Lose 50+ lbs
10. Cook every recipe out of a cookbook
11. Finish my existing scrapbooks
12. Attempt snowboarding again
13. Visit NYC and go to the top of the Empire State Building
15. Volunteer for the homeless
16. Go on a cruise
17. Graduate from college
18. Create a build-a-bear
20. Go to a Yoga class
21. Stay at a B&B
23. Bake a 3-layer cake and decorate
24. Become CPR certified
25. Throw someone a surprise party
27. Swim with dolphins
28. See a psychic
30. Learn to do screen printing
31. Climb a mountain
32. Release a message in a bottle
33. Learn to knit
34. Learn to crochet
35. Create a will
36. Write a letter to myself in 10 years
37. Donate blood
38. Send a secret to Postsecret
39. Go horseback riding
40. Buy a lottery ticket
41. Go to a cake decorating class
42. Get a passport
43. Carve my name on a tree
44. Buy a house
45. Make ice cream from scratch
47. Plant a tree
48. Join a bookclub
49. Join a new church
50. Go rock climbing
52.Email someone from the past
53. Donate gently worn clothes to goodwill
54. Make a wish at 11:11 on November 11th, 2011
55. Register to vote
56. Get Health Insurance
57. Pay off college loans
58. Go to the Fulton Brewery
59. Visit Wisconsin Dells
61. Take a self-defense class
62. Look at the stars through a telescope
63. Name a star after Brian
64. Buy and use reusable shopping bags
65. Write a note and tie it to a balloon
66. Ride in a limo
67. Buy an expensive dress
68. Ride a mechanical bull
69. Learn to change my own oil
71. Leave a random note in a library book
72. Do a Polar Plunge
74. Write a mini-book about how we fell in love
76. Create myself a "Fulton" wallart
77. Have my grandmother teach me how to sew
78. Go water-skiing
79. Volunteer at the Boys and Girls club
80. Go to a concert
83. Make my own headbands
84. Have my wedding rings re-set
85.
86. Assist in laying down flooring
87. Go to the Renaissance festival
88. Don't buy anything for a whole week
89. Dance in the rain
90. Influence someone else to do this project
91. Complete a coloring book
92. Build an igloo
93. Open a IRA
94. Buy a car [10/2/10]
95. Take pictures in a photobooth
96. Learn to play a song on a guitar
97. Go camping in BWCA
98. Create a family tree
99. Go to a Twins Game at Target Field
100. Go back to Oceanside, CA where our love story began
101. Learn how to say I love you in 5 different languages
88. Don't buy anything for a whole week
89. Dance in the rain
91. Complete a coloring book
92. Build an igloo
93. Open a IRA
95. Take pictures in a photobooth
96. Learn to play a song on a guitar
97. Go camping in BWCA
98. Create a family tree
100. Go back to Oceanside, CA where our love story began
101. Learn how to say I love you in 5 different languages
Day 06
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
I don't want to follow the trend of everyone else who has this as their blog today. The one thing I hope I never have to do is tell my [future] children we cannot have Christmas/Birthday parties or go on a family vacation. By no means did I never have Christmas or Birthdays but I envy hearing about other peoples. I want to give my children EVERYTHING in the world. [without making them spoiled brats] and enjoy family time at least once a year while traveling the country. Yep!
I don't want to follow the trend of everyone else who has this as their blog today. The one thing I hope I never have to do is tell my [future] children we cannot have Christmas/Birthday parties or go on a family vacation. By no means did I never have Christmas or Birthdays but I envy hearing about other peoples. I want to give my children EVERYTHING in the world. [without making them spoiled brats] and enjoy family time at least once a year while traveling the country. Yep!
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Day 05
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
I have so many things I want to do with my life.
I want to be a great wife,
I want to be an awesome mom,
I want to travel the world,
find a job I love,
buy a brand new car with everything that I want in it,
meet a U.S. President,
go to vegas,
complete a half marathon
and someday a full marathon.
make a difference in someone's life,
take a picture worthy of being ina book/magazine,
and show my family how much they mean to me.
I'm sure there are a 1,000 other things I'm forgetting but those are the few the come to mind the quickest!
I have so many things I want to do with my life.
I want to be a great wife,
I want to be an awesome mom,
I want to travel the world,
find a job I love,
buy a brand new car with everything that I want in it,
meet a U.S. President,
go to vegas,
complete a half marathon
and someday a full marathon.
make a difference in someone's life,
take a picture worthy of being ina book/magazine,
and show my family how much they mean to me.
I'm sure there are a 1,000 other things I'm forgetting but those are the few the come to mind the quickest!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Today was AWESOME!!!!
Do you ever just have "good" days? Today was one of them! Brian and I woke up early to go take the dogs to Bald Eagle lake to run around and to work out and talk. With mandatory overtime and Brian's sleep hours we honestly spend like 2 hours a night with eachother. We came home and got ready and noticed that Brian's unemployment was finally approved! It only took forever! Then we checked our Navy Fed acct and received our travel pay! Hallelujah! Our last pay that we were waiting for from the Marine Corps! Then we went to the bank to cash some checks, and get his TSP withdrawl notarized. So basically Brian has everything we need. We went to a health food store and did some browsing, he's really trying to adhere to my eating and wants to lose weight too. Then I went and weighed in for Weight Watchers! Down another 1.8lbs! 4.4 lbs in two weeks isn't too bad! I'm still shooting for 3 lbs for next week! Now I've been at work and bored out of my mind. I've watched my shows season premieres online and now just counting down the minutes to 8:30 so I can head to Brian's parents for dinner with his cousin. Gotta love a busy life! At least it keeps it entertaining!
Day 04
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
I need to forgive my parents. For lying to themselves, their children, each other and not being able to get over their relationship, even more than 12 years later. They both taught and instilled in me things I wish I never had to deal with. Tendencies I wish I could erase and habits I had hoped I wouldn't carry on. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents. I always had a roof over my head, shoes on my feed and food in my belly. We didn't have family trips growing up besides the fish house up on the lake. I wish my parents would accept the divorce, move on and stop hashing it out between the kids. I know they try not to, but they honestly suck at it. I'm hoping that I can not pick up some of their habits. Their eating and working out habits and their overbearing tendencies when it comes to children. I know it is going to take strong will and a husband who reminds me of it and it's a day to day process. I'm proud of who I am, what I have I have earned for myself and paid for myself [with the help of Brian of course, love you babe] But we shall see what happens. I have a lot of resentment towards my parents so I'm not sure if I will ever be able to completely forgive them.
I need to forgive my parents. For lying to themselves, their children, each other and not being able to get over their relationship, even more than 12 years later. They both taught and instilled in me things I wish I never had to deal with. Tendencies I wish I could erase and habits I had hoped I wouldn't carry on. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents. I always had a roof over my head, shoes on my feed and food in my belly. We didn't have family trips growing up besides the fish house up on the lake. I wish my parents would accept the divorce, move on and stop hashing it out between the kids. I know they try not to, but they honestly suck at it. I'm hoping that I can not pick up some of their habits. Their eating and working out habits and their overbearing tendencies when it comes to children. I know it is going to take strong will and a husband who reminds me of it and it's a day to day process. I'm proud of who I am, what I have I have earned for myself and paid for myself [with the help of Brian of course, love you babe] But we shall see what happens. I have a lot of resentment towards my parents so I'm not sure if I will ever be able to completely forgive them.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Day 03
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
I have to forgive myself for a lot of things to be honest. I don't let things go easily and I'm not proud of who I was from age 19 til the day I met Brian. I don't think about it often, but when something sparks a memory from that 9 month period in my life I honestly want to cringe. I guess at least I am honest about it and haven't tried to hide what I did, with who and who I hurt during that time. I apologized to the people that I hurt and so I wish I could just let it all go and not have to think about it. I have to forgive myself for being human? Having to learn my own mistakes and finding myself? At least it only took 9 months. It could have taken a hell of a lot longer. I guess I just wish I could forget the memories.
I have to forgive myself for a lot of things to be honest. I don't let things go easily and I'm not proud of who I was from age 19 til the day I met Brian. I don't think about it often, but when something sparks a memory from that 9 month period in my life I honestly want to cringe. I guess at least I am honest about it and haven't tried to hide what I did, with who and who I hurt during that time. I apologized to the people that I hurt and so I wish I could just let it all go and not have to think about it. I have to forgive myself for being human? Having to learn my own mistakes and finding myself? At least it only took 9 months. It could have taken a hell of a lot longer. I guess I just wish I could forget the memories.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Day 02
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
I love that I can make people laugh. I have that uncanny ability to just make people giggle even when they are in a horrible mood and want to sit and sulk. I think it's a great gift and I try to use it as often as possible. Now I'm not a comedian or anything like that. I just am very bubbly, loud, change my voice and use my hands when I speak to tell a story. People need laughter these days. Everyone is so cynical about everything. Unhappy, broke, lonely and scared about the future. I like to think that I bring a smile to someones face on a daily basis. Those belly hurting, tears welling up in your eyes, snorting and laughing your [real] laugh that you try to hide from people. My favorite!
I love that I can make people laugh. I have that uncanny ability to just make people giggle even when they are in a horrible mood and want to sit and sulk. I think it's a great gift and I try to use it as often as possible. Now I'm not a comedian or anything like that. I just am very bubbly, loud, change my voice and use my hands when I speak to tell a story. People need laughter these days. Everyone is so cynical about everything. Unhappy, broke, lonely and scared about the future. I like to think that I bring a smile to someones face on a daily basis. Those belly hurting, tears welling up in your eyes, snorting and laughing your [real] laugh that you try to hide from people. My favorite!
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Phew!
Saturday: busy, busy, busy. I started off the day heading to a car dealership with my best friend. She's driven a car we nicknamed the cardboard box back in senior year of HS [yikes over 5 years ago] and she defintely needs an upgrade before winter. It was interesting [reason being i'm hoping to post next weekend!] Then went to the albertville outlet malls with my aunt/god mother Karen. We spent 3 hours shopping! Bought some cute clothes at oldnavy and walked away with $1.38 jeans! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Then we went to coach. They had a 50% clearance and then an extra 20% off that day. So I found 1 and then kept finding others and comparing it to and then we found the *BECKY* purse. I'll post a picture down below. It was under $100 bucks and it was my graduation present to myself. Then my aunt bought me the matching wallet a a grad present to me. Super cute!!! Then came home and we went shopping with my Mom and Stepdad and Brian and I bought out the store. Or at least it felt like it. We hadn't bought essentials in a while and then I'm putting together my sewing/scrapbook room upstairs so I need organizers and decorations. It's an ugly room but will be great when I'm done with it! Then we went to dinner and it was great to just, go out to dinner with my mom, jerry and Brian. I love my family. TONS!
Sunday: I was down 2.6 lbs in my first WW week, I'm down another 2 already and weigh in is in 3 days. I'm hoping the 5k this morning and then staying within my points will result in another lb. I have 55 lbs I want to lose and if I lose more after I'm ok with that but if not. I know what I looked like and how I felt at that weight and I know I'll be satifisied. I ran the 5k is 42:29. Not my best time but I haven't run in weeks b/c of spraining my ankle and it was a trail run. I was so scared that during the hills I would not see a hole and wrench my ankle again but I didn't! I finished, and not last either! Next 5k is in 2 weeks and I'm hoping to beat it by 5 minutes or more. I better get my butt into gear :] I'm about to go tend to the yard, shower, finish up laundry and then start on my tomato soup base to freeze for the winter and tomato sauce I am going to freeze to cover us through winter. I have 3 buckets of home-grown tomatoes! We got a great batch this year and I learned so much from having my first garden! Plus I saved a ton on vegetables! I can't wait to double the size next spring! Have a great Sunday!
Let's see my life in pictures!
Sunday: I was down 2.6 lbs in my first WW week, I'm down another 2 already and weigh in is in 3 days. I'm hoping the 5k this morning and then staying within my points will result in another lb. I have 55 lbs I want to lose and if I lose more after I'm ok with that but if not. I know what I looked like and how I felt at that weight and I know I'll be satifisied. I ran the 5k is 42:29. Not my best time but I haven't run in weeks b/c of spraining my ankle and it was a trail run. I was so scared that during the hills I would not see a hole and wrench my ankle again but I didn't! I finished, and not last either! Next 5k is in 2 weeks and I'm hoping to beat it by 5 minutes or more. I better get my butt into gear :] I'm about to go tend to the yard, shower, finish up laundry and then start on my tomato soup base to freeze for the winter and tomato sauce I am going to freeze to cover us through winter. I have 3 buckets of home-grown tomatoes! We got a great batch this year and I learned so much from having my first garden! Plus I saved a ton on vegetables! I can't wait to double the size next spring! Have a great Sunday!
Let's see my life in pictures!
Our new welcome sign on the house!
My tomatoes and cucumbers I picked, just this morning!
Graduation Tickets! Commencement = next Saturday!
My *becky* purse and matching wallet!
And after the 5k and with my t-shirt!
Day 01
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
I hate that I let myself go again. I did when I got married and hated myself for it. Busted my a** so to speak while he was in Iraq and in 18 months after he came home I had gained it all back and then an extra 20 lbs. That's not healthy. To gain 50 lbs in a course of 18 months. I stopped working out, stopped watching my portions, we ate out a ton and I just stopped caring. I'm getting back on track but it's going to be hard to take it off and keep it off this time. I'm getting older, my metabolism is even slower than it was when I was 21. Brian's home for good [it's so much easier when he was away!]. I'm working full-time and winter is right around the corner! But I want to be healthy, I DO NOT want health problems like my parents b/c of their weight and I want to be at a good weight so that when Brian and I do choose to want to have babies I can concieve quickly and easily and be able to be active during the pregnancy so I can get it off just as quickly as it came on. My genes are not the best, I have tons of health problems when people get into their 40s and while I have quite a few years until that time, I don't want to wait around for those problems to come to me. I want to nip it in the butt now and be proud of myself. Have my sister be proud of me and be able to raise my [future] children well too.
I hate that I let myself go again. I did when I got married and hated myself for it. Busted my a** so to speak while he was in Iraq and in 18 months after he came home I had gained it all back and then an extra 20 lbs. That's not healthy. To gain 50 lbs in a course of 18 months. I stopped working out, stopped watching my portions, we ate out a ton and I just stopped caring. I'm getting back on track but it's going to be hard to take it off and keep it off this time. I'm getting older, my metabolism is even slower than it was when I was 21. Brian's home for good [it's so much easier when he was away!]. I'm working full-time and winter is right around the corner! But I want to be healthy, I DO NOT want health problems like my parents b/c of their weight and I want to be at a good weight so that when Brian and I do choose to want to have babies I can concieve quickly and easily and be able to be active during the pregnancy so I can get it off just as quickly as it came on. My genes are not the best, I have tons of health problems when people get into their 40s and while I have quite a few years until that time, I don't want to wait around for those problems to come to me. I want to nip it in the butt now and be proud of myself. Have my sister be proud of me and be able to raise my [future] children well too.
a little about me in 30 days
My goal is to do this, [stolen from Taryn] complete it and see how much I can actually be honest about myself in the next 30 days!
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Friday, September 17, 2010
I would forget
So I just received my tickets for graduation in the mail this past week. It mentioned to make sure we had our cap and gown and blah, blah blah.
GUESS WHO FORGOT TO ORDER HERS???? yep. me.
I have a cap/gown I just need the stupid tassel for University of Phoenix. Only problem is they mail 3 weeks out. Great. I graduate a week from tomorrow. It's just my luck that I would forget something as important as this. I'm praying on my lunch break today that I can go to a store and pick one up or have them bring it to graduation or I can rush order it.
It's just money..... right?!
GUESS WHO FORGOT TO ORDER HERS???? yep. me.
I have a cap/gown I just need the stupid tassel for University of Phoenix. Only problem is they mail 3 weeks out. Great. I graduate a week from tomorrow. It's just my luck that I would forget something as important as this. I'm praying on my lunch break today that I can go to a store and pick one up or have them bring it to graduation or I can rush order it.
It's just money..... right?!
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Happy Days
Some days do you just get out of bed and know it's going to be a good day? That was my day yesterday. I started my new shift so I don't have to wake up at 6:30 to get to work on time. I get to leisurely get out of bed at 7:30 and that's only because I want to get my workout in before the kids start their walk to school. [my dogs would go crazy!] Then I get to eat breakfast with Brian and not just have to kiss the top of his head goodbye, and get a grunt that he understands I'm leaving and be on my way. I get to do my hair and not have it end up in a ponytail within 2-3 hours. I also had my first Weight Watchers weigh-in. I'm down 2.6lbs! I have a goal of 55 that I want to lose, but it's a start! I'm hoping for an even bigger number this week since I have a 5k Brian and I are running in together on Sunday morning, but you are only as good as you do all week, not in one day. I'm doing well and have actually been able to tell Brian "no babe, I can't eat that." He's been eating healthier too b/c he hopes to lose weight. It's all about changing your life and I hope he gets it this time. I'm sick of being overweight and unhappy. This is the first step in making myself happy!
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
reality check
"Give some of that weight where it belongs, - to God, and have faith that what happens is for the best, whether you understand it or not."
I've had to keep reverting back to this quote for the past few weeks. Its been a rough road and transition moving back home. I figured it would be all roses and butterflies and boy was I wrong. It's a never ending transition for Brian and myself and I have to remember that life is not going to be exactly what I want because I cannot control what other people do I can only control myself. I'm trying to step back and remember that. I'm a very organized, loud, obnoxious, outspoken and plan oriented person. When things don't go the way I want I get thrown off and flustered and I hate feeling that way. But that's normal.... right? I know how lucky I am. I have a job, a roof over my head, a working car, a man who loves me, puppies who wait by the door while I am gone and amazing friends and family who are so supportive. I have a life many would envy but sometimes I take it for granted. I try to push for more and it backfires on me.
But one of my bosses told me something yesterday that is so true. My brain is moving faster than the rest of my body can function. My brain runs a thousand miles a minute and I can't figure out how to slooooooooooooow down. I get ahead of myself in words and mix them together, my fingers don't type as fast as my brain is thinking and it's so frustrating. I don't know when it started but I'm hoping to take things more off my plate and passed on some of my burden to Brian which I think he likes. It's been quite a reversal with me working and Brian being the one at home. I know he's bored, he hates me working and coming home late. It's nice being wanted.. it's really really nice to hear it sometimes.
Until next time.
I've had to keep reverting back to this quote for the past few weeks. Its been a rough road and transition moving back home. I figured it would be all roses and butterflies and boy was I wrong. It's a never ending transition for Brian and myself and I have to remember that life is not going to be exactly what I want because I cannot control what other people do I can only control myself. I'm trying to step back and remember that. I'm a very organized, loud, obnoxious, outspoken and plan oriented person. When things don't go the way I want I get thrown off and flustered and I hate feeling that way. But that's normal.... right? I know how lucky I am. I have a job, a roof over my head, a working car, a man who loves me, puppies who wait by the door while I am gone and amazing friends and family who are so supportive. I have a life many would envy but sometimes I take it for granted. I try to push for more and it backfires on me.
But one of my bosses told me something yesterday that is so true. My brain is moving faster than the rest of my body can function. My brain runs a thousand miles a minute and I can't figure out how to slooooooooooooow down. I get ahead of myself in words and mix them together, my fingers don't type as fast as my brain is thinking and it's so frustrating. I don't know when it started but I'm hoping to take things more off my plate and passed on some of my burden to Brian which I think he likes. It's been quite a reversal with me working and Brian being the one at home. I know he's bored, he hates me working and coming home late. It's nice being wanted.. it's really really nice to hear it sometimes.
Until next time.
Monday, September 13, 2010
I PASSED!!!!!!
I passed my OMNI test today. That's basically what I'm called. An OMNI Retirement Service Representative [RSR] Omni is the system we use, the only down side is that we are learning a whole new system in 3.5 weeks for the conversion with Wachovia. But who doesn't like change?! I also received my new hours today. 11:30-8:30pm. Kind of crappy but at least I'll have the mornings with Brian, my puppies and time to run errands and I have all weekends off so that's a perk! We took the dogs on a trail walk tonight, we do quite a few days a week and tonight it was nice being Brian and I with our dogs. I miss them while I am gone all day with work and being gone 50 hours a week. I just have to keep looking at the light at the end of the tunnel. Being out of debt in 15-17 months will be worth every minute I'm away from home!
Brian started on my craft room today. A few weeks ago I was given a sewing machine from Brian's mom. It comes with it's own desk and I bought 9-cube organizers one for sewing items and another for my scrap booking corner. I have a feeling this winter I am going to be quite the little craft maker! I can't wait to have things settle down and be able to start working on my first project. Michael's and Joann's are going to be my new favorite stores.. still behind Target of course!
Brian started on my craft room today. A few weeks ago I was given a sewing machine from Brian's mom. It comes with it's own desk and I bought 9-cube organizers one for sewing items and another for my scrap booking corner. I have a feeling this winter I am going to be quite the little craft maker! I can't wait to have things settle down and be able to start working on my first project. Michael's and Joann's are going to be my new favorite stores.. still behind Target of course!
Sunday, September 12, 2010
It's only 8 o'clock?
It feels like it could easily be 11 or 12. Probably because I've been up since 5:30 and I went to bed at midnight. I spent the morning and first part of the afternoon at the half ironman also know as the square lake long course triathlon. I came home and started to clean out the garage from yesterday's post. It's halfway organized and swept out. I also was able to get the garbage and recycling organized to go for tomorrow and do all my laundry. I bought new workout clothes to better prepare myself for half-marathon training and since the weather is not going to get any warmer only colder.. I didn't even own a pair of decent running pants! Brian and I are running the Trees and Trails 5k next Sunday in the next town over. I haven't ran in almost 4 weeks since I sprained two ligaments in my left ankle at work [in the parking lot no less] so Brian and I are going to take the dogs out for a mile run tomorrow and see how my ankle holds up. I have 5 more races before the half-marathon; which is only 12 weeks from Today. In less than 12 weeks I'll be in LAS VEGAS!!!!!!
It's back to another long work week tomorrow. I know I shouldn't complain because I have a job when millions don't but going from unemployed to being away from home for 50 hours a week is defintely a change. But on the bright side of things I won't be strapped for cash for Vegas, Christmas and I hope to take two mini-trips. One back to NC [a shock right!?!] and then hopefully to Texas in March to see th new Baby Rollins after he/she makes their debut!
Alright.. I completely got off topic as to why I even started writing. I'm tired, my legs are killing me from all the lifting and working out this week after not doing anything b/c of my sprain so I think I am going to go head to bed to curl up and finish my book. I test out tomorrow to be on my own at my desk without a mentee. Let's hope I don't fail since I am testing with the Training Manager. Plus in just over 30 days I could get hired on by WellsFargo.. HELLO raise, health benefits & a real name tape at my cubicle :]
Until tomorrow... Have a great week loves!
****OH and I almost forgot. Brian made the most BOMB pot roast tonight. He texted me how to make it while I was at the Triathlon and he did it. He said it was the best meal he's had in months. Well at least I don't take offense b/c I haven't made dinner since NC ;)
It's back to another long work week tomorrow. I know I shouldn't complain because I have a job when millions don't but going from unemployed to being away from home for 50 hours a week is defintely a change. But on the bright side of things I won't be strapped for cash for Vegas, Christmas and I hope to take two mini-trips. One back to NC [a shock right!?!] and then hopefully to Texas in March to see th new Baby Rollins after he/she makes their debut!
Alright.. I completely got off topic as to why I even started writing. I'm tired, my legs are killing me from all the lifting and working out this week after not doing anything b/c of my sprain so I think I am going to go head to bed to curl up and finish my book. I test out tomorrow to be on my own at my desk without a mentee. Let's hope I don't fail since I am testing with the Training Manager. Plus in just over 30 days I could get hired on by WellsFargo.. HELLO raise, health benefits & a real name tape at my cubicle :]
Until tomorrow... Have a great week loves!
****OH and I almost forgot. Brian made the most BOMB pot roast tonight. He texted me how to make it while I was at the Triathlon and he did it. He said it was the best meal he's had in months. Well at least I don't take offense b/c I haven't made dinner since NC ;)
Saturday, September 11, 2010
My day... as if I could squeeze anything else in!
I spent the morning at the Square Lake Triathlon, short course was today. The long course is tomorrow. It was FREEZING this morning right off the lake. Brrrrrrr. Here's a little snapshot of the finish line.
Nothing smells as good as fresh cut grass on a chilly Saturday afternoon. I finally had time to do the little details I wanted to on the house. Cut the grass super short, trim branches, lay mulch down, weed wack around the fence and until next spring when we paint the house.. It's as good as it's going to get!
My new flower beds with the added mulch!
And the final projects on my to-do list before the snow starts to fall; which they are predicting could be soon. I want to clear this all out. This is the area between the house and the garage. I'm about halfway there... and a long way to go.
And the garage. Have to get it organized so I have a place to store my car when the snow comes.
And just for good measure... all my loves on this lazy Saturday night!
Thursday, September 9, 2010
So I started
Yesterday I started Weight Watchers again through my work. It wasn't something I wanted to do, but that I really needed to do. I'm getting to a point I promised myself I never would and know I need to fix it now if I ever have a chance to. I have 55 lbs I want to lose, even them I am still technically above the "healthy weight" weight watchers wants for my height but to be completely honest, I don't want to be that size and don't think I would look good that small. I know my body, my bone and muscle structure and have a good goal in mind. I'm writing this so that I stay on track, you can watch my progress and keep me accountable. I haven't been hungry for 3 days. I've eaten maybe half of what I am supposed to and I can tell with how I've slept and the my energy level. Luckily I have awesome co-workers and family support that is working positively in my favor. I'm off to go make some chicken stir-fry... late I know. But I need to fuel my body for another day.
Oh and the Minnesota Vikings opening season game is against the New Orleans Saints tonight.. I'm hoping for a win!
Oh and the Minnesota Vikings opening season game is against the New Orleans Saints tonight.. I'm hoping for a win!
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
I did it.
I swear my life could be a soap opera. I woke up before the sun this morning. Calling the Marine Forces Reserve IPAC in New Orleans, LA who is supposed to have Brian's service record and no one answered for over an hour. So I call the other number on the card which is for the offices in St. Louis, MO. They give me the number for the Headquarters of the Marine Corps and I don't think I had ever been so scared to dial a number in my life. The lady advised me that New Orleans, LA should be answering and would be able to answer my questions but also that Camp Lejeune would has to keep Brian's service record on file for 2 years so to call them and they should be able to overnight it to us. I call Camp Lejeune IPAC Separations and got THE best LCpl I have ever talked to! LCpl Hughes was such a sweetheart and let me explain the whole story. He stated they only had page 2 of the DD214 but that he would get it certified and out to me if he could. He put it in a PDF file and emailed it to me but of course it's not official so the VA or Brian's school won't take it. He says he will call back if he has any more information. By that time it was 8:30 and I had to leave for work. I gave all the information, phone numbers to Maureen [who is THE best Mother in Law in the entire world] And she made all the phone calls she could. After my lunch break this afternoon I get a call back from Lcpl Hughes and he tells me they have Brian's DD214 and to return his call. After his formation [man I forgot how long those are] I was finally able to connect with him and he tells me that it was NEVER MAILED OUT!!!!! What a load of crap. He apologized a thousand times and said he would mail it out ASAP but we know that would take forever. I would have bribed the kid to overnight it to us if I knew he wouldn't get into trouble for it. But being the doll he is, is going to put it in the mail out in town at an actual post office so we all know it will get in the mail at least 2 days faster than the on base mail system. Here's to hoping we get it Monday/Tuesday.
Here's to hoping it all works out the way we want it to. At least.. I'm hoping it does.
Here's to hoping it all works out the way we want it to. At least.. I'm hoping it does.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Stupid STUPID piece of paper they call a DD214
I never in my life thought getting out of the Marine Corps would be this hard.. I guess I was dreaming? Those of you who are a part of the USMC know why I say that.
Here's the back story. Brian turned in his separation paperwork on July 2nd, 2010. We were all packed up to go. Myself, his parents, and our dogs just waiting for him to get the OK that we could start the trek back to Minnesota. Well he came to the hotel to get us and told us we had to wait until the next day. A Saturday no less, which also happened to be during the 4th of July 96. Did they honestly expect us to wait another 5-6 days to get this DD214? We called and they told us it would be mailed to us the following week and we would have no problems. So his mom and I jumped in our SUV and he and his dad in the 26' Penske and started our 36 hour trek back to Minnesota. We called the next week and were told we would have to wait until his EAS [End Active Service] date to get his DD214. This puzzled me but I went with it b/c what other choice did I have?
Well August 16th rolls around. The day after his EAS date and the first business day and we call. They say there is a whole batch going out and it's probably in it so to give it a week. 10 days later still nothing. I call, get a Sgt. He takes our names, number and information down and says he will call back in a few hours to let us know what is going on... he never did. The next morning I called with a vengeance. I talk to a nice woman lcpl and she puts me on hold with what feels like forever and she tells me Brian's DD214 was mailed out on July 16th and could take 4-6 weeks to get to his Home of Record [which is his parents house, 2 miles from where we live now] I then advise to her that if that is in fact when it was mailed then it has been 7 weeks and that we have a problem. I ask her how to get a duplicate and she states to contact the VA or Headquarters Marine Corps. Really that's all you can tell me?! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
We've called everyone we can think of, everyone we know. Requested records online. Talked with Brian's private college and he has exactly 2 weeks from today to have that DD214 or he can't go to school this semester. That's really not an option. He's been waiting for this for 4 years... He needs to go to school, we don't really have a back-up plan at this time. I'm so annoyed. Well we get this card in the mail today regarding our online request and are given a number to contact that supposedly now holds his records. I'm praying to the good lord above that someone has the answers tomorrow. Otherwise Brian will be getting in the car tomorrow afternoon and making the 1400 mile drive to NC again to get this STUPID certified DD214 so he can finally start his life outside of the USMC. I'm so angry at how unhelpful the Marine Corps is, how people are not more willing to help. The VA and Govt wonder why so many Marines and Soldier's are killing themselves b/c they can't get help. [insert example right here] I'm so lucky my husband has an amazing support system and well quite frankly [and he reminds me quite often] what a bitchy wife he has that doesn't get off his back. I don't know where he would be if I wasn't. I'd go to the ends of the earth for him if he asked, even though I know he never would.
We will get through this, I just wish it was easier. I want him to go to school, achieve his dreams and be happy. I know I am now that I am home, almost graduating and having a full time job. I just want that for him. I want him to be rid of the USMC. I am sick of them controlling us, even after his EAS date. Oh and not to mention we haven't been paid in 5 weeks. We're still waiting on our last two paychecks. Here's to hoping Mypay is right and we actually get it all on Sept. 15th. Thank goodness we had a savings acct and back-up plan for money. B/c lord knows we'd be in the doghouse if we didn't.
If you read this say a little prayer we get a little miracle tomorrow. I'm ready for that chapter to be over. I'll never forget the past 3.5 years the MC has been in my life. But I sure will be happy when my husband gets the benefits he deserves.
Here's the back story. Brian turned in his separation paperwork on July 2nd, 2010. We were all packed up to go. Myself, his parents, and our dogs just waiting for him to get the OK that we could start the trek back to Minnesota. Well he came to the hotel to get us and told us we had to wait until the next day. A Saturday no less, which also happened to be during the 4th of July 96. Did they honestly expect us to wait another 5-6 days to get this DD214? We called and they told us it would be mailed to us the following week and we would have no problems. So his mom and I jumped in our SUV and he and his dad in the 26' Penske and started our 36 hour trek back to Minnesota. We called the next week and were told we would have to wait until his EAS [End Active Service] date to get his DD214. This puzzled me but I went with it b/c what other choice did I have?
Well August 16th rolls around. The day after his EAS date and the first business day and we call. They say there is a whole batch going out and it's probably in it so to give it a week. 10 days later still nothing. I call, get a Sgt. He takes our names, number and information down and says he will call back in a few hours to let us know what is going on... he never did. The next morning I called with a vengeance. I talk to a nice woman lcpl and she puts me on hold with what feels like forever and she tells me Brian's DD214 was mailed out on July 16th and could take 4-6 weeks to get to his Home of Record [which is his parents house, 2 miles from where we live now] I then advise to her that if that is in fact when it was mailed then it has been 7 weeks and that we have a problem. I ask her how to get a duplicate and she states to contact the VA or Headquarters Marine Corps. Really that's all you can tell me?! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
We've called everyone we can think of, everyone we know. Requested records online. Talked with Brian's private college and he has exactly 2 weeks from today to have that DD214 or he can't go to school this semester. That's really not an option. He's been waiting for this for 4 years... He needs to go to school, we don't really have a back-up plan at this time. I'm so annoyed. Well we get this card in the mail today regarding our online request and are given a number to contact that supposedly now holds his records. I'm praying to the good lord above that someone has the answers tomorrow. Otherwise Brian will be getting in the car tomorrow afternoon and making the 1400 mile drive to NC again to get this STUPID certified DD214 so he can finally start his life outside of the USMC. I'm so angry at how unhelpful the Marine Corps is, how people are not more willing to help. The VA and Govt wonder why so many Marines and Soldier's are killing themselves b/c they can't get help. [insert example right here] I'm so lucky my husband has an amazing support system and well quite frankly [and he reminds me quite often] what a bitchy wife he has that doesn't get off his back. I don't know where he would be if I wasn't. I'd go to the ends of the earth for him if he asked, even though I know he never would.
We will get through this, I just wish it was easier. I want him to go to school, achieve his dreams and be happy. I know I am now that I am home, almost graduating and having a full time job. I just want that for him. I want him to be rid of the USMC. I am sick of them controlling us, even after his EAS date. Oh and not to mention we haven't been paid in 5 weeks. We're still waiting on our last two paychecks. Here's to hoping Mypay is right and we actually get it all on Sept. 15th. Thank goodness we had a savings acct and back-up plan for money. B/c lord knows we'd be in the doghouse if we didn't.
If you read this say a little prayer we get a little miracle tomorrow. I'm ready for that chapter to be over. I'll never forget the past 3.5 years the MC has been in my life. But I sure will be happy when my husband gets the benefits he deserves.
An eye opener
Today is a day I will not likely forget. Well neither will the past 5 days since I heard the news that one of my good Marine friends lost the love of her life in Afghanistan. I want to hurt every single person who was in the area, I wish I could ask 1,000 different questions as to why Josh… why Chrissy? But then I have to think to myself.. Why does anyone deserve to go through this. Josh will be "home" today. I wish he was coming home for real, not to be laid to rest. I wish Chrissy could experience another amazing homecoming like she did last Spring. I want to fly to PA to be there with her and just let her cry on my shoulder. I am so proud of all the girls who have helped her, the ones that I know and the ones that I don’t who have been there for her because we all know she needs it now, a week from now and will continue to years from now. She has started a blog that has me in tears every time I read it. I want to take her pain away and tell her it was all a dream. I haven't stopped thinking about her since Thursday morning. I've talked to her a few times. Sent a card, donated money and will proudly wear a pink and black shirt once I receive it in the mail to honor the love of her life. I want her to know that I will never forget him. Ever.
"If the Army and the Navy
Ever look on Heaven's scenes,
They will find the streets are guarded
By United States Marines"
Please pray for this young man, the love of his life and all those who were touched by him. All the fallen men and women who have given their life for this country that many take for granted every single day.
I love you Chrissy and I will be here for you any time, any place. You are not alone.
"If the Army and the Navy
Ever look on Heaven's scenes,
They will find the streets are guarded
By United States Marines"
Please pray for this young man, the love of his life and all those who were touched by him. All the fallen men and women who have given their life for this country that many take for granted every single day.
I love you Chrissy and I will be here for you any time, any place. You are not alone.
Monday, September 6, 2010
My First
This is my way of getting my thoughts out and letting my friends read it and also being able to get feedback from them. I don't know how often I will write in this but I want to and I hope to.
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