realizations

Sometimes when you read something it makes you sit back and actually think about it. A girl I went to High School with posted this quote as her status yesterday on facebook and it made me stop and think.

 

"Base the majority of your thoughts, words, and actions in believing. Believing contains no doubt. Believing does not waiver. Believing is absolute faith. Believing remains steadfast despite what is happening in the outside world."

 

I honestly just sat there and read it, applied it to my life. I smiled a few times where maybe a week ago I might not have. I let myself laugh about stupid things and not let the fear of people judgings me  for being who I am and saying what I think get in the way of actually doing it. I am a very lucky person. I got a temp job for this weekend. Nothing too over the top but it's $300 dollars that I didn't have yesterday so I'm thankful for taking a chance, not letting life get me down and enjoying where I am at right now. Because things could always be worse. I have a roof over my head, a car that runs and food in my fridge and the love of a man who keeps me warm at night. Sometimes you just have to put things into perspection and realize that some people would kill for what you have. I'm lucky and I know I am.

let's not kid ourselves here.

Wednesday I lost my job.

Terminated.

Fired.

Canned.

The adventures of unemployment in Minnesota begins... let's hope it's a short one.

What is next?

I'd love to be able to say I know what I want to do with the rest of my life. I do know a few things. I want to spend as much time with my friends, family and husband as I can. Oh and I can't forget my dogs. They are my living breathing children until real ones come which is still years down the road and after watching them both play, slide and eat snow this morning after their first snowfall of living in Minnesota it made this day start with laughter. I know Brian and I want to build a BOMB  house and in a few years when we come to that next step I can't wait but I really want to find my nitch. A job that I will love going to everyday. Ok maybe everyday is not exactly it but it is a dream. I want to belong somewhere and what I am doing right now I know it's not it. I have a little over a month to decide if I want to start taking some more classes at the community college that's only a few miles a way but I don't want to just "take some classes". I want it to be towards my real goal of a great job. I guess I just needed to get that out. I know I am not going to be able to do a whole lot with my AA degree in Criminal Justice so I need a certificate, some formal training or something to get my foot in the door. I'd love to work for a lawyer. LOVE IT. Now I just need the right training.

Cupcakes anyone?!

I have been on this cupcake binge for weeks. I don't even eat them, I usually just give them away or make Brian eat them but they are so fun to make. I was originally going to make white cupcakes until I accidently dropped a yoke into the batter and that ruined the "whiteness" so I decided to steal an idea that I had seen on a baking website but usually they use actual chocolate and I decided to be creative and use food coloing. They taste GREATTTTTTTT and I even placed coordinating homemade buttercream frosting on top!

 swirly

 baking away

 The inside of the cupcake :)

 HOMEMADE BUTTERCREAM BITCHES!

 all cooled down and ready to frost!

 dishing it up to make different colors

 making the colors

 coordinating frosting anyone?!

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life is good.

I'm apparently on the right track with my good karma lately.

My check was quite a bit bigger than I thought it would be. I got gas yesterday and had a .7 coupon and when I drove by the same gas station today it was up .20 more than it was yesterday. Then to top it off I finally have my Christmas list finalized, sent out my wishlist! Plus, when you come into work and have someone say, "you look really great today." It can brighten up any mood. I'm glad it's Friday, I needed it to be Friday. Although I have to work tomorrow morning at the butt crack of dawn, it's time and a half and that's all that matters.

Happy Friday Everyone

Traveling

I can't wait to travel. I have lots of dreams and goals in the next few years and traveling is most definitely one of them. My sister and I fly out to Vegas 4 weeks from tomorrow, Texas is in March, hopefully a cruise with Brian in May for our 4 year wedding anniversary or lack there of Honeymoon we never took and  next summer I hope to make it back down to NC to visit some of my favorite girls :) I want to go to Ireland after seeing my in-laws amazing photos, I want to go to Mexico and lay on a beach, I want to go to Disney world and NYC. AHHHHHH I could go on and on about the traveling I want to do. Just to think in 15 months I'll be out of college debt and really have money makes me so anxious.

I'm also hanging out with my best friend in the whole wide world again and we have so many plans just between now and the end of the year. I've seen her more in the past 3 months than I have the past 3 years  I lived away and didn't realize how much I really missed her! Plus holidays are right around the corner and I can't wait to bake amazing food, have good quality time with my family and just enjoy being me. I'm getting back to my positive happy self. Figuring out my little groove that I needed to get into and I can't believe Brian and I have been home for 4 months today. It's astonishing what you can find to do with your time when you have even 1 to 2 more hours in a day.

My foot is on the mend. It's still not 100% and I had quite a lack of sleep last night from probably walking on it too much and not keeping up with icing it. Plus.. IT'S FREAKING GETTING COLD OUT! Which is probably making it hurt worse. The swelling is down and so is the bruising so hopefully I can start walking on my treadmill next week. I'm still holding out hope of being able to do the marathon. Even if I walk almost the whole time and take the entire 3:59:59 time limit.

Until next time.....

Wordless Wednesday